I was not made to fit in.
It’s exhausting to try to fit into a mold that isn’t mine.
It’s debilitating to spend years, a lifetime, trying to fit into labels and boxes that belong to other people.
I was made to be free.
I was made to love and be loved.
I learned through facing the harsh reality of life in this world that I would always be perceived by some as an outcast.
I experienced first hand what it’s like to be rejected and excluded.
It used to hurt me so deeply when I would be denied the opportunity to try something new or access to basic human rights simply because I was different from others.
I know… that sounds like the words of a victim. Although I have been victimized I am no victim, that is not what defines me.
Bear with me for a few more moments and you will find out what I mean.
After years of being authentically and unapologetically myself, trying to find a place where I was welcomed, where I belonged, I realized there was none.
If I wanted to find my tribe, I would have to create a space for other people like me, to come together and so I did.
I restarted my journey by becoming each day more open about who I truly am.
Finding more and more courage and inspiration to be my best self without fear of judgment.
I began again to do what I’ve always loved doing and in the process attracting to me others who connect with my essence and want to belong with me.
I made room in my life and in my world for me to just be.
And by doing that I was also making room for others to do the same.
Now I feel drawn more and more towards places I had never been before and to people I’ve never known.
The journey of love, acceptance and attraction has led me to where I am today and to the people I have in my inner circle.
That is why I created @smartt.cindy, as a page for my people to find me and gather around me, at my table… our table.
That is where I can be. And you can be. And we are together.
Thank you for your support and for your love and authenticity.
I see you and I love you for being here and walking with me on this journey..